Grendel+1+(E+Block)

“The world and everything in it is unplanned accident, existence is meaningless; the past is irrelevant; nothing matters.”

Pg. 11 - "'Why are we here?' I used to ask her. 'Why do we stand this putrid, stinking hole?' She trembles at my words. Her fat lips shake. 'Don't ask!' her wiggling claws implore.(She never speaks.) 'Don't ask!' It must be some terrible secret, I used to think. I'd give her a crafty squint. She'll tell me, in time, I thought. But she told me nothing." - When I was young, I questioned the meaning of life. If the meaning of life is something that even my mother cannot answer, then it must be that there is no meaning. Because I was very young, it mattered a lot to me what my mother thought since I could not figure it out alone.

Pg. 33 - "Then once, around midnight, I came to a hall in ruins. The cows in their pens lay burbling blood through their nostrils, with javelin holes in their necks. None had been eaten. The watchdogs lay like dark wet stones, with their heads cut off, teeth bared." - After seeing this and hearing what the dragon thought about the world not having meaning to it, I thought that existence was meaningless. If everything is going to end, then it would not matter if it was there or not. Even the cows and dogs were there physically, but they were dead, so it did not matter for them to be there.

Pg. 68 - "Importance is derived from the immanence of the infinitude in the finite." - this means that the importance of all the endless existence of life and of God is obtained by having an end. I do not understand exactly what this means, but I think the quote has a negative meaning towards the meaning of life.

Pg. 174 - "'Poor Grendel's had an accident,' I whisper. 'So may you all.'" - When I said this, I meant that through an accident any existence of life can come to an end. I meant that everyone should not have too much pride in themselves, but I also meant that if everything is going to come to an end, then there is no meaning for life. If we know that we only exist for a limited amount of time, then it does not matter to be here.

Statement - Not everyone knows that the world is just a series of unplanned accidents, and that existence is meaningless. They do not know this because they are distracted by other components in life such as money, power, and fame. These are just little things that make life seem a little sensible, but they do not earn anything for anyone. I questioned if everything else around me was real, but I did not know. "'Why are we here?' I used to ask her. 'Why do we stand this putrid, stinking hole?' She trembles at my words. Her fat lips shake. Don't ask!' her wiggling claws implore.(She never speaks.) 'Don't ask!' It must be some terrible secret, I used to think. I'd give her a crafty squint. She'll tell me, in time, I thought. But she told me nothing."(pg11) My mother, even my very own mother did not know the meaning of life. If there is no meaning of life, then how do I know that there is life? The past is irrelevant and nothing matters. Just like the dragon and Ork had said, life will end. The Ork specifically told me, "'The ultimate evil is that Time is perpetual perishing, and being actual involves elimination. The nature of evil may be epitomized, therefore, in two simple but horrible and holy propositions: 'Things fade' and 'Alternatives exclude.''"(pg132) Life may be notional, but it does not exist. Every living thing will eventually die for the sake of a renewal. It does not matter if that renewal is there or not, because the things that are gone will not return. If they do not return, then what is the point of living? What is the point of history? "Then once, around midnight, I came to a hall in ruins. The cows in their pens lay burbling blood through their nostrils, with javelin holes in their necks. None had been eaten. The watchdogs lay like dark wet stones, with their heads cut off, teeth bared."(pg33) Just like these cows and dogs were there but not living, everything around me may not be living, and if they are, then they will die. "Importance is derived from the immanence of the infinitude in the finite."(pg68) I think that the importance of all the existence in life and the existence of God is obtained only by death. There is only life because without life, there can be no death.